I gave up and its nice not to care. Anger , expectations and what people thought, I threw them all overboard. The moments, the people and the words that I miss the most now must have been the best things of my life. I wish I had the chance to do it again. Just one more time. 

Wish I could just stay quiet and listen to the concern behind their words when my family or friends lost their cool on me. Wish I hadn't expected people to not judge me. Wish I hadn't expected anyone to not talk behind my back. Wish I hadn't cared for anyone’s opinions. opinions are just words . They shouldn't matter because they don't define me. They only define the person who owns the opinions. 

What defines me is what I see when I look into my eyes, in front of a mirror. If I can fall in love with that image, I deserve another day, another chance. If I can fall in love with something each day, just a little bit, I am alive and I am thankful. If I can see a smile on a face and hope it never fades away, I am human enough. 

Now I can't give up on myself nor can I disappoint myself anymore. It is as relieving as I have made peace with my biggest enemy. I don't need to prove anything to anyone expect myself and it feels nice not to care.


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  1. Chandrakant20 April 2018 at 06:53

    Hey Sis,

    Some pretty strong words here :). Whats good is that you have moved on from all those -ve vibrations. Wait until I get back :).

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    1. Radha Ramani Vanam21 April 2018 at 09:40

      Haha , that seems to have hit you hard. Its just my observations..the kind of things we waste our time and energy on. :o)

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